Almost Raped

Sometimes, I remember unpleasant things that
happened to me when I was younger.

I was a teenager
being targeted by an older married man.
I don’t know what he saw in me
but he wanted me to be his girl.
I remember when he said
he couldn’t wait until I turned 18 years old.

He had his ways with showing up
at my front door when no adults were around.
And even when they were around,
he’d come in the room I shared with others
as innocently as he could
to say hi was the excuse he told
and of course he was allowed to

but I was being cornered and felt up
by someone I looked up to at the time.

Rape seemed to always be on his mind.
He was a trusted friend and I
was an unwanted mistake
the day I stepped foot in a different world
so nothing I said or did
protected me from that monster.

Although, I was blessed not to be raped by him,
it almost happened a few times.
I was overpowered and had to think fast.
For years, he tried his best to rape me but never succeeded.
Thank goodness he did not.

I remember speaking up
about the ordeal a number of times,
trying to bring light to the situation but
no one seemed to believe
a word that came out of my mouth.

It was always dismissed just as quickly as it was brought up.
My family always made excuses for him.
They defended him instead of me.

Patient For Love

I search never again for the perfect mate.
One will come when the time is right.
I’ve matured enough to know
I am better off being patient with love.
Last time I rushed unto the love scene,
years of unhappiness followed.
I’ve learned my lesson
looking for love (in all the wrong places).

Disinfect With Tears

Cry a river, shed your tears
if it will help ease the pain
from the heartache knotting up your insides.
Something has ripped you apart,
powerful enough to shut you down temporarily.
Shed your tears to disinfect the hurt.
It’s for your own good.
Let the healing begin.

Unlock The Chains

No one is perfect.
Everyone is born into sin
but we can unlock the chains
that has so many bounded,
they don’t want to be saved.

Kindly turn away from temptations,
as appetizing as they seem, they are never good.
The only aim is to conquer, corrupt and destroy
but don’t hide from the truth.
The truth will unlock the chains.

Unhealthy Relationship

It’s time to walk away
when fighting and arguing becomes routine.
It’s not a healthy relationship
when unhappiness takes over.
It is better to keep your sanity
than to bury yourself in torture.

Don’t fall apart
to the point where you’ve become
enslaved to crying yourself to sleep at night.
Get back your self-control,
pack your bags and leave.
You deserve better!

Entertainment or Garbage

You spend a lot of your time
in front of the tv but
almost all of what is shown,
chosen with “you” in mind
is straight up garbage.
It is meant for the dump.
In fact, dump it and burn it.

Money, power and materialistic things
solves everything in the make-believe world.
That’s what gets projected
while your mind is being robbed.

The majority of modern-day living is all for show,
mostly for entertainment purposes.
You don’t need this. You don’t need that.
You don’t need any more junk.

Turn off the tv, it’s for your own good.
Return it, sell it or destroy it.
Whatever rocks your boat.
Set your mind free from
all these mind-controlling distractions.
Sure, it’s entertaining but
you’re better off without it.

God’s Plan

I used to think the world was the perfect playground.
I wanted to do nothing more than
to climb the corporate ladder and
be “successful” by a certain age.

silly me! I can say that now but
I was disappointed for the longest time
with the turn of events that disrupted my reign.
I blamed myself for the hole I was in
without realizing I was right where I needed to be.

Sure, it was a hard pill to swallow but
today, I am happy that the world rejected me
because God already had a perfect plan in place.
Come to think of it…
even if I was at the top of the corporate ladder,
I wouldn’t have been able to top God’s plan for my life.

Take Out The Trash

Snakes. Backstabbers. Haters.
They all fall in the same category.
Don’t trust them
don’t trust them
not even for a single second.

Snakes will spit on you
with venom so poisonous
you would die on the spot
in plain view.

Backstabbers will stab you in the back
over and over again
if you let them
with the same sharp knife
even after you’ve stopped moving.

Haters just don’t want you to have anything good.
They will hate on everything you have.
Don’t keep them around
get rid of them.

Laugh. It’s Ok.

Laughing wholeheartedly
is like being carried away with the wind.
It is the calm after a bad day.
Everything negative just melts away
yet not enough people experience
that true, no-holding-back, letting go feeling.

I don’t know why so many send
LOLs with smirks on their faces.