Facing The Light

My thoughts are no longer
dark and haunted by my past
as it was so many haunting moons ago

I used to live in a dark room;
there was no light there,
yet I still felt safe enough
And accepted other people’s failures as my own

the ones who could help me didn’t know how,
and the ones who did didn’t try

My emotions fueled my existence
I would wear my heart on my sleeves
Too scared to break free
from other people’s opinions of me
I became their prisoner

The Mess of Bitterness

Your bitterness is a mess,
I’m stressed out
just thinking about how
twisted up things are between us.
I wish things were different,
but you are who you are,
and I am who I am
and I’m going to have to accept
that things are out of my control
for once, I need to trust God’s timing.

Things Are Falling Into Place

Emotions drive people to crazy things
I’ve learned to start giving things
a few days or weeks
before making a decision; these past
few months have been the hardest; it felt
like my entire world was falling apart, but
as time goes by, I can see
everything is beginning to fall into place
the weight of the world is being lifted
off my shoulders now
I can breathe a little easier.

Beautiful Mess

A beautiful mess,
that is the sum of my life.
Everything is as it should be
Though most of the time,
it does not seem to be enough for my acquired taste…
On the real
I can’t complain,
I’ve got it better than most
Not to boast, no way,
I’m humbled

Boobytraped

Saying no
It is never easy but
understand that it’s OK
to say that dreaded word
That’s a lesson I’m still learning.

I’m always quick to say yes to everything
And then end up second-guessing
after caving in to the pressure
that comes with pleasing others
I do what I think is expected of me