Facing The Light

My thoughts are no longer
dark and haunted by my past
as it was so many haunting moons ago

I used to live in a dark room;
there was no light there,
yet I still felt safe enough
And accepted other people’s failures as my own

the ones who could help me didn’t know how,
and the ones who did didn’t try

My emotions fueled my existence
I would wear my heart on my sleeves
Too scared to break free
from other people’s opinions of me
I became their prisoner

The Mess of Bitterness

Your bitterness is a mess,
I’m stressed out
just thinking about how
twisted up things are between us.
I wish things were different,
but you are who you are,
and I am who I am
and I’m going to have to accept
that things are out of my control
for once, I need to trust God’s timing.

Things Are Falling Into Place

Emotions drive people to crazy things
I’ve learned to start giving things
a few days or weeks
before making a decision; these past
few months have been the hardest; it felt
like my entire world was falling apart, but
as time goes by, I can see
everything is beginning to fall into place
the weight of the world is being lifted
off my shoulders now
I can breathe a little easier.

Stress Is Painful

Stress is messy; it’s painful. It kills
anyone who stands in its way.
You included. It’s okay for you
to walk away from anything or anyone
who threatens your mental health. Your life
matters too. People don’t have to agree
with your decisions for it to be right.

Narcissist

It’s all about them and what they want
these people will lie and play the victim 24/7
it’s all about what you can do for them
They’re never satisfied no matter how many
times you’ve bent over backward
to lend a helping hand; they’ll cuss you out
in a heartbeat and tell you
you’ve done nothing for them.