In The Face of Failure

Get up in the face of failure
using good ole’ consistency; try
and deflate “the sky is the limit” balloons
of limitations placed on dreams
challenge the conventional wisdom
about your potential sharpening your skills
with only one positive move per day
for three weeks to form a good habit.

The Mental Switch

It’s a mental thing; a mental switch goes off
in my head when verbal communication comes
into play; hours, days, weeks, or months before,
I experience a period of pure hell; I cannot sleep,
and walking on eggshells becomes the norm.
Mentally, I don’t know how to cope with
the upcoming engagement; I’m worried about
what other people may think about me
and how I don’t want to embarrass myself
in front of them; I know my voice will shake,
and it’s going to be a disaster. I can’t shake
the feeling off that I’m not good enough; I’m
a long way off from remembering my self-worth;
at that moment, I’m too stuck in my weaknesses;
my mind goes through another period of drowning.

‘Not Messing Up’

Conversations flow freely in my mind
no shortage of words, never a dull moment
I am calm and fearless, but verbally, I have
a hard time explaining myself
I overestimate everything. When it’s time
to speak, I get nervous; my mind
starts racing, anxiety sets in, my heart pounds
it’s a debilitating mess. I can’t think
straight anymore; I’m so focused on
‘not messing up,’ but still, my words
come out jumbled up, and my explanations
incomplete; I’ve transformed into a coward
what people think consumes my mind.

Classism

The more money you have, the more
opportunities you have presented to you
on a platter. The less you have, the more
others look down on you for not being born
with a silver spoon in your mouth
—it’s an equal-opportunity world.