Paved To Dirt

It feels like I’ve been – trying –
to find myself forever.
Saying I’ll do this
or I won’t do that.
Saying I need to get better at this
or I need to do better at that.
I’ve been looking for myself everywhere
there seems to be an opening.
I usually feel the high life
of the change to come,
then before I know it,
the paved road turns back into the dirt road.