Restless nights. I am slowly
deteriorating, I’m functioning on
just enough sleep to get me by.
Rest is in the hands of the beholder.

Sometimes when people are too
rambunctious, talking over everybody,
I wonder what they are covering up
or going through inside at the moment.
Sometimes it looks like a show;
maybe their booming voice is their only
outlet to drown out their pain.

I will not rest until I complete
my life’s journey; I cannot rest
until I achieve my greatness.

God forgives at any stage in life.
He can wipe your conscience clean
if you want Him to. The advantage is that
mistakes are a vital part of this tremendous
once-in-a-lifetime experience.

Jail, just another kidnapping ring,
though real criminals live there
innocent people end up there too,
locked up for crimes
they did not perpetrate.

I’ve spent my entire life putting others first,
looking for nothing in return. Man cannot
reward me. My restitution is
above their pay grade.

Thank God, I’m not a follower. I’ve always been
a “go-getter.” Even though I’ve spent
more time procrastinating than I should.

I know I have antisocial tendencies
and it doesn’t bother me much anymore.
Before, it used to have me
caught up in the frenzy of
wanting “more friends.”
But the more I thought about it,
the less inviting the concept became.

While extra friends seem refreshing,
it wouldn’t change
much of anything in my case,
I’ve learned to be comfortable
in my space, alone.

Yes, sometimes I felt isolated
and would like that bonding experience
with someone else but then when it happens,
I can only manage so much of it
before I’m crying for my space again.
It’s a constant cycle
that I’ve had to end
and I don’t let anyone
make me feel bad about it anymore.

Plus, the few beautiful friends I have
seem to appreciate the precious times
we spend together, which is rare.
So when things come together, it’s a treat.

Everyone’s busy living their lives anyway,
including me. I’ve long ago
discarded the charity card
others display for constant attention.

Living a life separate from
the world is not simple, but it is doable;
some people will never understand
why you do not want to be like them.

Seek after The Lord Jesus Christ
and His righteousness and everything else
will be added to your life
according to your obedience.