Still Empty

I had to find the strength to walk away
from deadly insecurities; I had to stop looking
for companionship in strange men, they used me,
and honestly, I did the same thing I spent
many nights crying over.

I chased after the validation I received
from those flings; in those moments, I thought
love from a man defined my worth; I was wrong!
I always crawled away, feeling empty
every time I gave up my womanhood
for free I questioned my real motives but felt
powerless to lose the high tide of passion.