was never a part of the plan.
I often end up hurting
the ones I love out of fear.
I’m so good at pushing
people away but that’s no excuse.
The things I really want to say to you,
words I know will help and will heal
won’t pass my lips
yet the things I shouldn’t say
that hurts and pushes us farther away from each other comes easy.
I’m such a mess and I understand
why you want me to leave you alone.
Maybe I deserve those harsh words
but that’s no way to solve our problems.
Now I’m back to those sleepless nights,
wondering if you’ll ever
find your way back to me.