Playing With Fire

I hold grudges sometimes, and when I do,
I feel like a brick wall; there’s barely
any emotions coming out of me,
I feel numb; it feels unreal,
yet I will carry out the ambush
knowing it’s out of my league.

Once a loving and happy environment
now turns into something dark and painful,
it’s pointless; there’s a loss of time
and happiness that can’t be inserted
back to my life before the crazy downpour.