Best Outside Appearance

I have a lot of things pedaling through my mind.
I’ve been seeing the world in a clearer light.
Suddenly, materialistic things aren’t important,
it never really was

but I’ve allowed myself
to think it was OK to join the crowd of

best dressed,
best bank accounts, 
best cars, 
best apartment/house, 
best family/kids
- best outside appearance 

Hand-feeding the world
what I think it is they want to see/hear,

hyped up by what I was also seeing/hearing around me
although sometimes it was depressing

Showing off more skin than I did when I were a teenager.
Hoping to score the rich husband
with happiness on the side.
Chasing after a crazy dream
that wasn’t even my own.