I have a lot of things pedaling through my mind.
I’ve been seeing the world in a clearer light.
Suddenly, materialistic things aren’t important,
it never really was
but I’ve allowed myself
to think it was OK to join the crowd of
best dressed, best bank accounts, best cars, best apartment/house, best family/kids - best outside appearance Hand-feeding the world what I think it is they want to see/hear, hyped up by what I was also seeing/hearing around me although sometimes it was depressing
Showing off more skin than I did when I were a teenager.
Hoping to score the rich husband
with happiness on the side.
Chasing after a crazy dream
that wasn’t even my own.