Missing Ingredient: Me

I’ve swam through the darkest waters,
pushing through the mud and filth

I’ve battled
depression
suicidal thoughts
anger
lust
heartbreak
being a single mom…
…none of which has claimed me

fighting off the stigmas
polluting my drive for existence

For years, I’ve looked and looked,
searching for something wonderful

to show proof that I have lived,
a life worth living in the eyes of man.

That was a life I could not live.
I had to find a way to include “me” in my own life.

I had to find a way to pack up and ship off the things
that at one point almost destroyed me.

It wasn’t easy. It’s never easy
to let go of the things that was once my starting point.

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