My Self-Image

I, too, have struggled with the infamous self-image luggage.
Considering myself to be everything I was not intended to be.

I’ve put labels on myself:

Fat

Ugly

Dumb

Stupid

Worthless

“Too nice”

Socially challenged

Calling myself these things has never made me feel better,
I’ve always felt worst long after I’ve put myself down.

I’ve always wanted to be:

Prettier

Taller

Thinner

Smarter

Richer

Tougher

Meaner

Outgoing

I’ve always starved for a certain level of

Love

Attention

Understanding

Acceptance

Thinking I was preparing myself for the long journey ahead
Not thinking about all the injuries I was inflicting on myself

I just wanted to be fully and completely

Happy

Content

Successful

Comfortable

Normal

“Me”