I know firsthand
what feeling like a failure feels like.
The world was mine to conquer.
Yet, I didn’t make it past a certain point.
No matter what I did.
I never accomplished
the level of education or success
I’d always intended on achieving.
I’ve been everywhere and back
except where I wanted to be in life.
The American Dream was my theme song.
Yet, I’ve never come close to rocking that beat.
But I’m not mad.
I’m thankful I got rerouted.
God saved me from myself.
Without Him, I would’ve surely been lost.
Some days, as much as, I am thankful
I can’t think of one thing to say.
Words escape over fences.
Those days require more prayer than usual.
Praying isn’t easy.
Yet it isn’t hard either.
Once the chore-like feeling leaves.
It becomes second-nature.
The work of man’s hand,
those are our idols – TV, phones, cars, etc.
Anything man puts on a pedestal
takes away from God.
As long as, these things are not physically harming us,
we find nothing wrong with self-indulging.
That is what we tell ourselves
to avoid asking questions,
to get by unscathed.
We readily accept; tolerate
what is not pleasing
to keep up with modern times.
I cast the first stone at myself. Always.
My finger trembles. But points back at myself.
I make mistakes daily. So far from perfection.
I need the most work. An ongoing construction zone.
Stems from feelings and emotions.
Those thieves that ties us down
and holds us as prisoners
of our selfish desires.
I’ve lost many things,
things I loved and treasured
and things I thought I needed
but only held onto for show and tell.
Meanwhile, I’ve gained
much more than I could’ve ever imagined,
valuable things I did not think I’d ever need.
I want to go to heaven.
You are in my heart.
God is awesome.
He is perfect beyond imagination.
He brings me beautiful joy.
I want to meet You when I die.
I hope I go to You when it’s time
but right now I’m on Earth
living a happy life.
Many people do not agree with nor understand the Bible.
They call it this ancient book that’s outdated.
So man has decided
to add and take away from God’s Word
to make it more appealing
to the wicked, evil eyes of man.
I have been through many terrible things
just like everyone else in the world,
I am no different.
I will always cast the first stone upon myself.
Removing the beam from my own eyes
before pointing fingers at someone else.
I’ve never done anything to stand out,
been a blender all of my life.
Sometimes paralyzed with fear
of what man will do to me
if they knew my secrets.
Compared to God’s wrath,
man’s judgment means nothing.
At the end of my life’s journey,
it will be I, only I,
who will have to stand before God.
Right now, I am stepping out in faith.
And asking Him to reveal His will for my life.
I know He has something great in stored.
I’ve never really been one to stand up for anything,
always been the person in the back
with nothing to say.
Now, I am compelled to stand up.
The Holy Spirit is speaking to me.
Telling me, it’s time to take action.
And I have to take heed.
The devil is a clever fella,
deceiving the whole world like it’s nothing.
There’s no love behind anything he does.
Just pure bitterness, jealousy, and hatred.
Mankind have become their own gods and idols.
Just the way he planned.
Give no way to the devil.
The Bible warns.
Put on the full armor of God.
That’s the best protection.
Ephesians 4:27 KJV
Neither give place to the devil.
Ephesians 6:11 KJV
Put on the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to stand against the
wiles of the devil.
Are you ready to die for your faith?
What would you do if that was you?
How strong is your faith in Jesus Christ?
This is a question all believers must ask themselves.
Jesus died for you,
would you be willing to do the same?
I used to think
with my feelings, and emotions.
I thought that was the only way.
I was set on trusting and believing in myself,
believing that was the path to success.
The Bible says in Proverbs 3:5-6 “trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge Him, and He will direct thy paths “
I know now that
God’s path is the only way.
Without Him directing my life,
I might as well be dead.
And that’s speaking from experience.