Poetry On A Roll

Emotions drive people to crazy things
I’ve learned to start giving things
a few days or weeks
before making a decision; these past
few months have been the hardest; it felt
like my entire world was falling apart, but
as time goes by, I can see
everything is beginning to fall into place
the weight of the world is being lifted
off my shoulders now
I can breathe a little easier.

Each breath is a struggle.
Every day we’re on the battleground
dodging bullets to survive another day.

Stress is messy; it’s painful. It kills
anyone who stands in its way.
You included. It’s okay for you
to walk away from anything or anyone
who threatens your mental health. Your life
matters too. People don’t have to agree
with your decisions for it to be right.

Your mind is a muscle
a battlefield
you are powerful
never give up
the battle rages on for your mind
guard it with your soul
you have a purpose

I’m in a grateful place in my life
I realize every breath is a gift
and the next moment is not promised

It’s all about them and what they want
these people will lie and play the victim 24/7
it’s all about what you can do for them
They’re never satisfied no matter how many
times you’ve bent over backward
to lend a helping hand; they’ll cuss you out
in a heartbeat and tell you
you’ve done nothing for them.

You might see my struggles
from time to time, but you will
never see me down for long; I’m going
to wear my best smile even when
I want to crawl up in a corner and cry
—I am determined to win.

I lay awake at night
unable to sleep
my mind is all over the place.

There’s been a dark shadow
over my life these past few years
I’ve overextended myself trying to
put a smile on someone else’s face
but I’ve been so uncomfortable
in my house, I’m walking on eggshells.