Poetry On A Roll

“I surrender all”.
I’ve been saying that for a long time now.
Teach me to let go of myself.
And focus on YOU LORD.
It’s time to walk the walk.

It’s all about YOU.
Help me to fully deny myself
And follow YOU to the end.

Let them look.
Let them laugh.
Let them think whatever they want to think.
It’s not about them.
It should have never been that way at all.

It’s all about YOU.
Help me to fully deny myself
And follow YOU to the end.

Something is holding me back.
And I want to get rid of whatever it is.
Cut the chains.
Untangle me from that stronghold.

It’s all about YOU.
Help me to fully deny myself
And follow YOU to the end.

Give me boldness.
To tune out the world and embrace you.
Give me strength
To lift up mine eyes to YOU.
Give me courage.
No matter how bad my voice sounds
to still sing to YOU with all of my soul.
Equip me with everything I need
To represent YOU all the way to the end.

It’s all about YOU.
Help me to fully deny myself
And follow YOU to the end.

All of my worries are a waste of time.
All of my stress have been weighing me down.
Only YOU can heal my self-inflicted pain.
From this say forward, let nothing stand in the way.

It’s all about YOU.
Help me to fully deny myself
And follow YOU to the end.

They just want to know
where they belong in your life
since sin is not the driving force
behind who you are anymore.

They want to know
if you understand what it means
to give Jesus Christ the driving wheel
They don’t want you to give up the world.
Well, some of it
but not all.

Serving God is a privilege.
It takes indescribable bravery.
Tuning out the laughter and the stares.
It is not the popular route to go,
that’s why so few last there.

Weighing heavy on my heart
was the need to be baptized.
I was ready
although I didn’t know what was next.

I know the road ahead
won’t be any easier
but I know for a fact
that I’m not alone in my journey.

I never belonged in this world.
I always felt like a stranger.
A greater purpose for my life
was brewing long before I knew it.
It is my will to serve God all the way.

Guide my thoughts Lord.
Guide my reactions too.
Transform my life like only You can.
So many bad habits to unlearn.
That’s not an impossible task
with You on my side.
I’m better off now than I ever was. 

I didn’t plan on starting
my new journey as quickly as I did.
But I’m glad it happened the way it did.
Thank God!

I don’t expect things to be easy now.
Serving God does not mean less struggles.
It’s just the continuation of ups and downs.
The difference is that God is at the wheel now. 

I finally took that step.
It’s been on my mind for a while now.
Today the opportunity presented itself
and I just couldn’t refuse.
My eternity means a lot to me.
I had to take the leap now.
It was between myself and God.
No one else existed in that moment. 

I got invited to church.
I didn’t think I would make it.
However, I knew I needed to be there.
There…in the house of God
where I was meant to be from day one.

Rise up in honesty.
Stray far from lies.
They are hard to keep track of anyways.
Too much covering up to do.

Live in the truth. 
It might seem impossible to do
only because
it’s not the popular route to go.
But it is the best way to live.

Depression is…
wanting to die every day.
You think of all the possible ways to take your life.

Depression is…
losing interest in everything you once loved.
Just drained out from breathing.

Depression is…
crying for everything
yet crying for nothing in particular.

Depression is…
feeling so lost and confused
you don’t know if you’ll ever be found.

Depression is…
still falling into depression sometimes

Depression is so much more than
what’s on the surface

He started making excuses.
She didn’t let it bother her in the beginning.

He apologized too many times but
she could tell it was never sincere.

He was distracted and sent mixed signals.
She always made her intentions clear.

He wanted to have it all without lifting a finger.
She finally realized he was wasting her time.

He won’t change, at least not for her.
She walked away and does not plan to ever look back. 

His lost.
Her gain.

Today I feel beautiful.
I’m walking on cloud 9.
And I love everything about myself.

Tomorrow I may feel like the ugly duckling.
I’ve fallen to the bottom of the todom pole
And can’t seem to find anything I like about myself.

I don’t often remember
I’m blessed to even be alive.
I’ve taken life for granted.