Time To Heal

I took myself away to heal.
All communication seized.
I didn’t need the daily reminders
of why I was never good enough
for them or how I should’ve
handled things differently
then perhaps I would’ve
had a happier ending.
I needed to mute those voices
on the other line telling me
to “get over it” when no one was there
to protect me from the slaughterhouse.

I needed to be alone with myself.
To find my voice.
To remind myself to live.
I didn’t need to prove or compare
myself to anyone to feel hopeful.

Fought For My Freedom

I’ve been busy,
putting my life back together

Trying to find some solid ground
where I can feel safe.

My home was my jail cell.
I was sentenced to life

for a crime
I did not commit.

They tried so hard to imprison my mind.
I fought even harder for my freedom.

I think I turned out okay.
God had different plans for my life

greater than all of our expectations.
My story didn’t end at that kitchen table.

God Is Already There

No surprises there
where God is concerned.
He’s already been “there” before;
He knows every turn and every
intricate detail of any route
you could possibly take.
Don’t worry about anything.
All of your needs are already
taken care of.
I try to remind myself
of that every day now.

Keep Fighting

I fight those demons every day
that tells me “I’ll never be
good enough”.
I can’t let them win
no matter how scared I feel.
I know I’m here for a purpose
greater than my small mind
can comprehend.
I keep fighting, I just don’t
have what it takes to surrender.

I Appreciate The Struggles

I didn’t always appreciate
the ups and downs.
I was mad more than anything
at the time I was playing and replaying
those painful episodes
I did my best to forget.
I didn’t understand why
it had to be me who had to
go through the things
that have made me who I am today;
I am stronger and wiser.

Destiny

That nudge that won’t go away.
Might as well just do it.
That thing you do so well,
no one else can duplicate
your unique spin.
It’s your gift; your passion;
you love it so much
no amount of money
can satisfy your love.